Withdrawal Report/ Some Observations:

- tweeted 4 times during grammys, felt joyful and fun.
- found new bio photo for panels & speaking opps & was tempted to put it up as my twitter photo, facebook, all branding outlets…but didn’t.
- feeling happiness over new relationship with blog. blogged more than usual.
- logged into facebook for events after an email prompt, found that i’d been tagged in a photo from BAGeL Radio’s awesome bday party. felt happiness, the photo won’t offend anyone, i left the tag up and revelled in the memory (GREAT SHOW OMG)

Bizarre Real-Life Situation: Creepiest Power Outage (EVER)

While finishing Cormac McCarthy’s The Road, the power in my house went out. I’m afraid of the dark, and was alone in a 3 story home.  Fear of darkness started about 6 months ago at the ripe young age of 35. So, i did the only logical thing: i lit a comical number of tealights, so that my room was bright enough to…..continue reading The Road.  (oh hai masochist!)  …..and I finished it in the dark. I can’t think of a better way to confront fear of darkness.  And here i am, telling the story from the light.  Yes, today I am that much stronger. I relied on my iPhone and laptop batteries, both which lasted the full 150 minute power outage.  Hello strength, goodbye nightlight?  ::one day at a time::

More Ongoing Observations:

a few great conversations with friends around the theme “it’s all fun until someone gets hurt” – general consensus seems to be that more individuals within the SF social network bubble are suffering lately. It is a combination of overstimulation, economic fear (and envy), and relationships which are hardly perfect and more often flawed in ways that can’t be sorted out in a digital platform.

some random thoughts and actions:

really deciding that i want no part of the “hurt” – when it does or does not involve me.  Made vow to not post pictures in facebook which could hurt another person, with or without privacy settings. Noticed my friend changed a relationship status, and felt sad for him/her. quickly logged out and instead made human contact with that same friend.  I will never understand the comments on relationship “news” on facebook even if they are good positive comments for a relationship “announcement.”  It seems like an excessive part of the platform designed for eventual pain. As i said, married/ not married is fairly concrete, but everything else in between is nothing less than an ongoing mystery of complication. Sometimes (and often) wonderful, but all part of a journey which might be better left out of social networks and within the walls of the relationships themselves.  Didn’t we outgrow it in college, or do some kids still want a lavalier? I’ve seen both sides, and decided to keep it simple and therefore personal.  but still, i’m one day at a timing. what do i know. not much….and that’s all i do know.